this is a to express my thoughts, true needs, experience, wishes, and rage. and to document my learning. and to share it. without thinking. to write about my life, a space in the world where i can try and see myself from somewhere else. poetry. songs. to connect with others. i hate the internet community. this is my last attempt.
i need to get out of here. i need to be a nomad. that is my hearts calling. a couple of years ago i was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. i ran away before the shrink could ”hand me down my formal diagnosis”. and medicines. i’m very interested in herbal medicine. i want to grow plants and food. i want to be able to turn towards the world with something other than despair in my heart. today. too many things that i want to do at once. i want to undertake a woodland coppicing apprenticeship, which is three years long. i want to live at ecodharma in spain. i want to destroy civilisation. i want to be completely honest about what i want.