the process of progress
What do you know about the good things
The way the sunlight kisses your face
What do you know about kissing
Have you ever kissed life in the face
What do you know about your faces
All of the people you used to be
What do you know about the people
All the people that you leave
What do you know about leaving
You can’t drop things
Came back a bit rough
I’m not my best friend here
I hear ya
Pull the wax out of my ears
You really ought to
Love yourself
Sleep well
And don’t worry about anything
Hello, hello,
it’s me, it’s me,
I’m broken, broken,
beyond relief,
beyond anything you could,
believe.
I’ve travelled, travelled,
so, so far,
to be here, here,
where you all are,
and so, so, round I’ll go,
following dreams that go nowhere.
Except the same, place, always,
a feint dark, disgrace,
taints me all my days, days,
and all that the ways of life,
have taught me is
live, live, shortly and slowly,
it might help to stem the pain, pain.
Slow, slow, mind how you go
down that rabbit hole,
mind how you go down that rabbit, hole.
Toiled and broken,
plundered and turned in,
over and in,
round it begins,
around the world for to sing, sing,
of all the ways of my sins, sins.
Oh, Sanctuary, in the forest,
Don’t touch me!
Rushing down the slimy brickwork
Past the terraced houses
Lamp-post Stalagmite
Hung up on the red light,
When we gonna go, go, go from the city!
Oh, Sanctuary, in the forest,
Don’t touch me!
I would like you to come with me,
I am also fine to go alone
I’ll climb trees and eat some berries
The forest will be my home
Just for a day, day, oh oh, or for my wholelife, uh huh,When we gonna go from the city!
Come clean,
Between my cold meat sweats
I can’t forget that you did something to me
Dishonestly
I can’t believe
That you would take it away from me oh Come Clean!
Come clean,
Between my cold meat sweats
A corporate wholesale of gamberling and bets
I can’t forget
That you did something to me
Dishonestly
I can’t believe
That you would take it away from me
Deliberately,
Come Clean!
Drain your world of care, and fill it up with apathyOr come clean!
Ink into water
Judgements come when the deed is done
Ink into water
And so then you suffer, Remember!
You’re Never Ready For It!
Ink into water
Judgements come when the deed is done
Ink into water
And so then you suffer…
What gives!
What gives, I give it all
What gives!
Away, away, away,
Giving away
It’s always easy to forget that you choose
Easy to mourn for the life you loose
I can’t believe that we’ll never be friendsI can’t bear that I’ll do it again
NB: This middle 8 changes each time I sing it
<SCREAM>
And the deed is done
And the deed is done
And the deed is done!
s’all gone
it’s what you come fighting for
guns blazing
bombs blowing
erasing the past
going over old ground lost
erasing the past
i dig my toes into it’s mud
i don’t know who you are anymore
i don’t know whose corner’s worth fighting for
mound of mud
old victory
group territory
open doors – open arms
shut before – i changed my mind
open doors – open arms
oh what have i left behind
rushin down – hometown
ignore it – see ya round
we’re open – til closing
we’re vunerable – all the time
i’m behind – the photograph you took
you won’t know – ’cause you didn’t look
reunion – in front of me
mound of mud – group territory
uh oh, uh oh, i’m alone and lonely
uh oh, uh oh, it’s group territory
i chase extremes
with my heart beat
you don’t/beat me/fast enough
passion
i have
passion
too much
or too little
i beat…faster
you don’t beat with me
you don’t beat with me
i loved you
i love you
but you DON’T BEAT
Synthetic burns
and curves
my graces
the birds are horrendous
don’t
don’t speak!!!
excitement races
+ crashes
don’t
don’t speak!!!
muffle the clarity
it’s in cardic arrest, it’s in cardiac arrest
in arrest, in arrest
forgotten dreams
splinter like glass
forgotten screams
glass splinter
help me, help me
we are the kids
teach us, teach us
oh won’t you
help me, help me
we are the kids
teach us, teach us
oh won’t you
in arrest, in arrest, it’s in cardiac arrest
in arrest, in arrest, it’s in cardiac arrest
in arrest, in arrest, it’s in cardiac arrest
in arrest, in arrest, it’s in cardiac arrest
stand against
insensitivity
it’s not lost
frivolously
we need to raise this
the truth of this horrible incident
will be made public
help me, help me
we are the kids
teach us, teach us,
oh won’t you
help me, help me
we are the kids
teach us, teach us,
oh won’t you
the birds are horrendous
the birds are horrendous
the birds are horrendous
the birds are horrendous
singhsweets.singsweetlytome.lullmebusride.onanotherdulljourney.
uphereit’squiet.soarethestreets.thewetpavementtinglesandthengoestosleep.
greentrafficlightsjumbo.lightsalwayson.lookssoalivebutthat’swrongwrongwrong.
lookssoalivethatthetreelooksdeadbeside.butthat’swrong,sowrong,that’swrong.
singhsweets.singsweetlytome.lullmebusride.onanotherdulljourney.
uphereit’squiet.soarethestreets.thewetpavementtinglesandthengoestosleep.
treegotnoleavesbutitain’tashamed.toshowusallit’sskeletalframe.
whenatreeblossomsohlookhowitblossoms.whenohwhendoesahumanblossom.whenohwhendoesahuman.
singhsweets.singsweetlytome.lullmebusride.onanotherdulljourney.
uphereit’squiet.soarethestreets.thewetpavementtinglesandthengoestosleep.
christianity.christianityohwhatischristianity.
followersofchrist.ofafreeradical.butohdidn’theleadbyexample.ohdidn’the.
singhsweets.singsweetlytome.lullmebusride.onanotherdulljourney.
uphereit’squiet.soarethestreets.thewetpavementtinglesandthengoestosleep.
busjourneyitridesalloverthevalley.overallthethingsi’velearnt.allthecrooksandthecrannies.
alltheshouting,thecaring,deadgrandad’sandgrannies.
allmymemorieswillcrumbleaway.timeprisedwideallmymemoriestoday.
timeisnotaprisetobeoneorgained.timeisbutananswertoapictureinaframe.
timeisbutananswertoapicture.
singhsweets.singsweetlytome.lullmebusride.onanotherdulljourney.
uphereit’squiet.soarethestreets.thewetpavementtinglesandthengoestosleep.
it’s not ok
this bridge between you and i
it is steeped
so that it’s easy for me
to lean down, and be a tower over you.
A tower that casts a shadow,
and is only a burden.
this tower, is my place
i built it from left over memories and mistakes
They cascade, down,
and cast that shadow in the corner of your eye.
Lord knows they have scarred both of mine,
and i can’t see.
you can climb up, oh you can
scratch your nails on the concrete
i know you have
you can climb up
and know this place as madness and awkward pride
but you know my plans are not held together,
you know my bricks are made of lies
so give me a wide, berth please,
until i’ve untied you from this mess
and let you free
it’d be easy
to break this bridge
‘tween you and me
if that was ok with you,
but it’s not,
’cause you can’t see
this tower, is my place
i built it all to be, my weaknesses keepsake
it cascades, down,
and cast that shadow in the corner of your eye,
oh sweetness, don’t you know that love is blind
i think i’ll try to turn my tower into rubble
and when the dust has fell and all has settled
i will come out from inside,
see what my heart finds.
i feel weird at life
i wanna curl up in its corner and be comforted there
for i never found anything
o i never found anything
that turned out to be anything
everythings turned out inside out
i don’t mind if i go outside
i don’t mind if i go inside
i’m cornered by the moon & tide
not a hard place but a pulling place all the same
and i do not wish to go around again
if its all the same to you.
your words stick and ring true
even though i know how wrong they are
a load of unsatisfied people
unsure what anything is for
i’m not sure they’ll turn out to be anything
except upside down, inside down, falling down, down, down
not from humility or grace
only an awkward and displaced
sense of saving face in front of you
you whose corner i seek,
i’m not sure i can do anything except be meek
while still holding on, wanting to be a tyrant
o its all going wrong, its all going wrong
i’m pretty much
on the verge
the more i try
the more i find
i’m pretty much
on the verge
one more try with
myself, and this sweet grassy scar
scattered with the lies and memories
of mistrust, and mysteries unsolved
i would rather claw my toes into its mud than grow old
and you know,
i think everyone would secretly understand why
life’s like a familiar stranger,
you never really need to say goodbye
’cause you never really said Hi.
tira mi su
so i can’t hardly hide
a few days to fall in love
a few days to tira mi su
i will make you tira mi su
so that i can’t hardly hide my eyes
i will show you how i’m not you
and never could be
even if it was hard, i couldn’t do it
if it was hardly a trace, you’d still know it
but we’re different people and i’ll show it
to you, ’til you, tira mi su
tira mi su
so i can’t hardly hide
a few days to fall in love
a few days to tira mi su
i will make you tira mi su
so i don’t have to hide
i’ll cross roads back and forth
keep to opposite sides
till you’re south and you’re north
with what’s truth and what’s lie
cos you’re holding me down, been holding me to
the illusion of falsehood being truth
but i know the truth, it’s in me and in you
and it won’t surface for less than tira mi su
so tira mi su
so i can’t hardly hide
a few days to fall in love
a few days to tira mi su
this is a thing i did once. spring two thousand and nine time. the video is the music for see-through/not love/ants.
it’s kind of nice to hear these things again and not be totally ashamed.
about three months ago, i moved into a rented house after squatting for three years. on one of those first nights, i cried completely, pouring my heart out through the night into the arms of a beautiful friend, who held me in quiet silence until i could meet her there. i had put a playlist together with ∆sides∆ on the end. the song before finished with twenty minutes of silence, and i had forgotten it wasn’t the last, until i heard myself from three years ago, singing to me to not be worried and not be afraid. my friend didn’t know the song was me, it was a really personal intimate moment.
me three years ago didn’t know that one day i would heal deeply to my own voice. it was really powerful and free of arrogance and so for this reason i have decided never to be down on something that i create, and destroy it, because then i might never experience it’s true meaning or beauty. it took me three years to hear that song. the lyrics are –
i no longer wish to learn from you
you are not that source of love
you rocked
back and forth
i rocked
side, side, side
and every thing was filled with light
peace i leave with you
not as the world giveth
give i unto you
let not your heart be worried,
neither let it be afraid.
i hate the jobcentre
i hate my advisor
he stopped all my money,
it’s how he’s gonna fix the economy.
you looked down my dress
you objectified me
then you stopped all of my money
is that how you’re gonna fix the economy
i have three pounds
that’s not gonna go round
very many places
is that how you’re gonna solve everyones problems
i’m sick of yr incessant shit
you made me really angry i aint gonna lie
your a really stupid guy
jobcentre fuck off and die
carry me away
oh you roaring sea
and don’t you let nobody bother me
carry me away
oh you roaring sea
i only want the little fishes to cry for me
my body will fill with saline
as i sink to the ocean floor
or perhaps you’ll take me
to rock up ‘gainst the shore
make sure that you rock me
right until the end
i won’t know, i won’t be there,
but i trust you, sister, friend
carry me away
oh you roaring sea
and don’t you let nobody bother me
carry me away
oh you roaring sea
i only want to feel the breath of your wave
yawning over me
HEY! dont think so much of yrself!
its not HARD… t o b e a b e t t e r p e r s o n t h a n m e
its part of it
but it doesnt have to be – you could have a cool existence and not feel anything.
you broke me – i crushed you – all in the name of nothing:
but cant get out cant see any where any way out of this place even though i’m on the highway . . .
take me anywhere
i want to be
anywhere
but here
STUCK IN ME